Art heals the soul. I used to think it was just a way of healing my own soul. Now I am beginning to understand that art can have the larger purpose of healing our collective soul. Our world soul. We all want to be loved. We all want to heal our wounds. We all do the best we can at any given time.
I am also beginning to see a larger purpose and a larger mission for my life. It is beginning to dawn on me the way light enters a new crack in a basement window that has been sealed and blackened out for years. I can now see the cobwebs and brush them aside. The cobwebs are my fears of being truly seen, of being ridiculed and judged as unworthy, of not being enough. I realize I am meant to help others heal what I have healed. People who have been deeply harmed and betrayed sexually, either as children or later in life. I want to inspire anyone who feels she doesn't have a right to the breath in her own body, or the right to take up space, or lift her eyes to meet the gaze of the one she is offering her holiest of holies to, all in hopes of feeling just a little bit of love for herself. All in hopes of feeling like she has SOME sense of worth. All in hopes of receiving a crumb of validation that she actually EXISTS.
I know what that feels like. I've lived it. It's the feeling of crawling along hot, crumbled pavement with shards of broken glass taring at your fingertips, shredding your hands and body as you drag yourself along day to day and night to night for years just wanting for life to end, but not wanting to hurt your friends and family by taking your own life-though coming close to that many times.
I have learned through trial and error how to heal this and stand up and shine. I want to help you feel empowered and encouraged that you, too, can heal your deepest wounds. The ones that can't be seen by the naked eye. The ones you don't talk about so much, but feel like razor blades at the core of your being. The ones that shattered your soul into a million pieces. You CAN become consciously whole again. YOU CAN HEAL. We are made to heal and shine.